Eclipse!

When the Twilight novels first started getting popular, I thought 'Really?? Vampires?? Woo hoo....' but then my sister Amanda read them and said they were great, but I still wasn't convinced enough to read them. However, then, my friend Laurie, who is an 8th grade English teacher, read them and loved them and said I just HAVE to read them. So I started in on Twilight with doubts but fell in LOVE in no time! They are WONDERFUL!! And then, I was ecstatic when they started making them into movies!! So far I have been to all 3 premier nights and I plan on being at the next 2 (I am VERY bummed they are breaking the last novel into 2 movies, just because I have to wait longer! but hopefully that will mean they will leave less out!) Anyway, On June 29, 2010, I headed out for a 'girls night' in the craziness of premier night! I must say the movie was GREAT!! I just cannot wait to see it again!! There were a few small parts that they left out that I didn't like, but such is life. I'm not the director!! I still seriously enjoyed it! Here are pics from the night (they were taken on my cell phone, so they are of seriously poor quality. I can never remember to take my camera!)

This is my sister-in-law, Kara. They were handing out vampire teeth while we were waiting in line! :)

Kara and Jacob Black (still hot, even in card board)

Ok... Maybe I'm team Jakeward!

Here's my group of girls!! From L to R: Lisa, Laurie, me, Kara, Amanda, and Amy

Lucky Lisa won an Edward cut out!!! And got to take him home with her! We were all so jealous.

We ended up sitting on one of the side rows so Lisa set Edward up beside her and they watched the movie together.

On Mommy Guilt

If you're a Mommy, then I'm certain at some point you have experienced mommy-guilt. If you're not a mommy and don't understand what mommy guilt is, it's when a no matter what a mommy does, she feels guilty about it!!

This is something I struggle with on a very regular basis. I beat myself up about almost everything I do!

Examples from today alone:

• I felt guilty for letting my kids watch lots of TV while I cleaned (this house is scuzzy and it was getting to me)
• I felt guilty for ignoring the kids while I cleaned
• I felt guilty for giving my kids ravioli for lunch, and then macaroni/beef casserole for dinner - I mean only a bad mom would give her kids redundant meals like that, right?
• I felt guilty that Joey threw a fit in his Sunday School class and I was not made aware by the teacher until I picked him up from primary (because that's my fault, right?)
  
• I felt guilty for not having exciting activities planned for the 4th of July, even though we've seen fireworks shows the past 2 nights in a row.
• I felt guilty for not taking the kids to see Kris ride on the fire truck in a parade but having them nap instead (they have been up LATE too much and needed a nap!)
• I felt guilty that I made dinner a tad late and the kids were STARVING (although miracle is the kids actually eat dinner when they're hungry for it!)
• I felt guilty that I had put savanna to bed, and then took Joey out front to watch the fireworks that neighbors were putting off. I mean, Savanna's not even 2 yet, but I felt bad she was missing out on the fun.
• I felt guilty they didn't have more out door play today
• I felt guilty we forgot to say a prayer at dinner
• I felt guilty we're almost out of groceries and had slim pickin's for fruit today.
  

This is seriously just a SMALL list of the things I feel guilty for on a regular basis. And it's not just passing guilt - it really bugs me. I mean, deep down I know I'm a good mom - my kids are healthy and happy, played with and cared for. But it's all this stuff on the surface that truly gets to me, but I swear, no matter WHAT I do, I find some way to feel guilty about it!

So this is a shout out to all you Mommas out there... how do you deal with your own mommy guilt?? It seems sometimes I can reason my way out of it because I know it's not rational, but sometimes I can't! So what to do. :) I'd love some advice from all the other moms! Or at least let me know I'm not alone in this!